09-04-03 - 05:20
"I've got my head, but my head is unravelling
Can't keep control, can't keep track of where it's travelling
I've got my heart, but my heart is no good
And you're the only one that's understood
I'd come along, but I don't know where you're taking me
I shouldn't go, but you're reaching, dragging, shaking me
Turn off the sun, pull the stars from the sky
The more I give to you, the more I die
and I want you
and I want you
and I want you
and I want you
you are the perfect drug…the perfect drug…the perfect drug
you are the perfect drug…the perfect drug…the perfect drug
You make me hard, when I'm all soft inside
I see the truth, when I'm all stupid eyed
The arrow goes straight through my heart
Without you everything just falls apart
My blood, it wants to say hello to you
My fears, they want to get inside of you
My soul, it's so afraid to realize
How very little there is left of me
and I want you
and I want you
and I want you
and I want you
you are the perfect drug…the perfect drug…the perfect drug
you are the perfect drug…the perfect drug…the perfect drug
take me with you
take me with you
take me with you
take me with you
without you…without you everything falls apart
without you…it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces
without you…without you everything falls apart
without you…it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces"
""NIN""
It's five and change in the morning. No real shock that I'm still up. I haven't been able to sleep for some time now. I got a call a few nights ago. To my shock it was an old girlfriend that I haven't spoken too for a few years. She said she was calling to catch up. I have no clue why. Maybe it's because she knows I never fully got over her and she needed an ego boost from the way that it keeps eating at me. She was always one to feed off of my self-loathing. I still don't know why I didn't hang up on her. Probably because hearing her voice stirred up feelings I thought long dead. Feelings I hoped with all my being had dried up. I asked her why it ended all that time ago. She kind of laughed and said that we were so young backs then. One of the things we had in common was that we were older than we really were back then. Some of the most meaningful times in my life were with her. I still have some of the pictures of us. I couldn't bring myself to get rid of them.
"Voices from the past come back to haunt you"
