04-10-04 - 18:28
"Knew you were here
Sister confirms suspicions
and besides that note that you left on my
Bed where i held you so close
did you think i'd forget
Couldn't be more of a mess
For to breathe used to be another way
way I'd take you in
Well It's time to wake up
Separate Feelings
that I keep Falling into
Each Seems like good reasons
But I Feel a Breakdown
I don't care if it shows up
i'm praying this for you
Till it's answered Ill say
Now it seems there's a choice
That began with a break
so today know that never again
will i know you that way
Well It's time to wake up
Separate Feelings
that I keep Falling into
Each Seems like good reasons
But I'm Gonna Breakdown
I don't care if it shows up
i'm praying this for you
Till it's answered Ill say"
Chevelle
Ok kids, who knows what a Dear John letter is. My girl friend back home is going to join the army like i did. i couldn't talk her out of it. so basicly what that means is we are brakeing up. we haven't even talked about the end of us yet. But i have been playing soldier long enuf to know what it means. i couldn't blame her for ending it because I'm over here, it has got to be hell on her back home. but that won't be the reason. she was more worried for me than anyone else, including myself. but what can i do, everyone must walk there own path, all i can do is be there for her if she gets lost. i'm not saying that i have a ton of pull with the army but i know people that could help her on her way.
on a diffrent note, i have yet to stay anywhere long enuf to even start to unpack. i have seen more of iraq than most people can say they have of there own state. but with the pain comes the perks. my experance here is far from what you can call normal. i have been many diffrent things. from playing demon to savior, hero to villan, killer to saint. all of witch i never asked for or wanted. the only thing that keeps me on missions is knowing that some of the time i have a chance of saving lives. it would have been simpler if i had just gone infantry, but why stop there. i just had to push myself to "BE ALL THAT I COULD BE" so i went farther. but that was my path, many people told me not to go but i just held my head up high. too proud too foolish too young.
i just wish i could sleep. no dreams just sleep. got to go. the worlds on fire.
i will try to write more soon.
