03-08-05 - 18:42
"I'm missing your bed
I never sleep Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak, And this bottle of beast is taking me home.
Well as for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs
And sit alone and wonder
How you're making out
but as for me, I wish that I was anywhere, with anyone
Making out."
I'm starting to think that flying down to Va. was a bad idea. It would have been best to leave the past alone. After we got off the plane in Des Moines I left to get on a different one headed down to Ft. Lee to see aneika before she left for Germany. I wound up spending most of that time sitting on base in my hotel room doing nothing but getting depressed over the fact that her and I were over. The time we spent together was great. It just seemed to add to the pain. I could only see her a few times due to time constraints. So for a week and a half I was just alone. That was most likely the worst thing I could have done. I knew there was no way for it to end happy, but I being the fool that I am just wanted to se her one last time. I said before that hope is dangerous, but it can completely destroy you.
