01-23-03 - 03:20
I saw a demon cry. First time in ten years. But I realized I was looking at a reflection. I saw my own eyes. What scares me is that one of the tears was tanted red. I no longer fear death, but I only want to die for somthing better than me. In 6 to 12 months, I will have a chance. I guess it should freak someone out that there commander told them not to make any plans at all, but I can't care. I want to go to war. Not to do my job, but to die without haveing to kill myself, as long as none of the people on my team are harmed. I know that if I make it back I will be f*cked up. I have all ready been in counter-drug, that was only a teast of war.
